Thursday, October 05, 2006

Blessed Autumn



The first round of edits for NUERMAR'S LAST WITCH are completed (Thank the Goddess!) and I sit at this window, south of Summer, and watch the leaves ripple in a growing gold and russet cascade. It rained yesterday, and for a few days before, the air tepid and humid with moisture--yet I yearned for the feel of flannel. Today, the air is cooler, the tea in my mug is hot and my mind drifts the pleasant taste and texture of hot cocoa on my tongue.

I love Autumn.

This Summer had so many ups and downs, joys and heartbreak; truly the most tumultuous time I think I have ever endured. I am glad to have come out of it intact, to be me. Galadriel's line in LOTR's comes to mind, where she pleased in the fact that she resisted the Ring's temptations and remained simply Galadriel.

From it all, I have learned that the best lessons learned are those hardest taught, that the rewards are sweeter for the suffering endured, and that some losses go soul deep. I've learned to be damned grateful for what I do have, and for that which I have not. I am truly Blessed with good friends, a loving family (even if some of them drive me insane), and a budding writing career. And as to the writing career, I am further than many, but not further than most and I know I have a hellish struggle to get where I want to be--but I am ready and willing, and embrace that challenge with arms wide open.

I look forward to long talks with my friends, walks with the dog, carving pumpkins and toasting the seeds. I look forward to chilly days with music streaming from my speakers, fingers dancing across the keys as a waft of steam from my cup drifts past my screen. And, so I ask, what are you looking forward to doing this Fall? Will you be reading, or writing? Will you be out in the crisp Autumn air? Or, will you miss Summer?

5 comments:

  1. Always think autumn is a time when we look both ways - a time of regrets and a mourning and toward hope and repeated joy.

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  2. I love Autumn too, it's my favorite season of the year...I can't wait to curl up with a good book by the fireplace and sip hot chocolate while it's raining outside! =)

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  3. Bernita~
    The turning seasons turn our thoughts as well as the temperatures. I'm looking for the 'repeated joys' now. :)

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  4. Hi, Dylan!

    Glad you made it here from Rene's. :) Autumn is the best, by far. Hot cocoa, books, flannel, pumpkins...Oo! pumpkin pie... I need to stop that train of thought. LOL

    Thanks for stopping by, Hun :)

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  5. I will be writing, and hopefully wrapped in warm blankets made by my grandmother.

    And probably wishing we didn't track so many leaves in the house. :)

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